I’m a very visual person. I see everything in my head. If I read a story, I’m living it in my head. If someone is talking to me, I see the action as if I’m watching it happen right then. I even feel the emotions of what is happening when someone is telling me this story, or the emotions of the character I’m reading.
You’d think that would make me a better writer, or artist, or conversationalist, right?
Wrong.
As soon as I open my mouth, or get ready to write that scene, or attempt to do some type of creative artwork, I freeze. The image disappears. It’s like it stuck in some black hole and I can’t get it out. While writing, if I envision a scene too much, it becomes dead to me. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve visualized this beautiful artwork, and yet it falls flat in real life. I’m no artist, but the art I see in my head is pretty phenomenal. I’ve often wondered why I can’t get the image out of my head and into reality. As soon as I try to get any of it on paper, it falls flat.
It’s a question I might never have an answer to. I’ve taken those tests that tell you if you’re more visual or logical and usually see both ends. I often wonder if that’s my problem. I’m too much of visual (creative) and too much logical, but not enough of either. Sometimes I feel like I’m so stuck in the middle that I don’t have strong traits of either right or left, creative or logical.
Now they say the two brains work best together, but maybe that’s my problem. I haven’t figured out how to make them work together yet.
It’s a conundrum. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself, forcing the issue, but if that’s the case, I still haven’t figured out how to not force it.
What do you think?